What Does It Mean to Be Me?

VERA JORDAN BELLAMY

Masters of Arts from UC Berkeley.

I was watching a video of Matthew Hussey, a famous relationship coach, in which he said that he didn’t understand or believe in the concept of “just being yourself”. So I started wondering what does it really mean to Be Me?  Yes, it is true that the advice “just be yourself” is classic self-help 101 talk, but it made me ponder on how we experience ourselves, and ruminate on what it means exactly to Be Me. The Me or the Self is the subjective experience of who I am at any present moment of time. It is an amalgam of the ego self and an energy/spiritual self. THE ME UNFOLDS… IT IS A PROCESS OF FEELING MY WORTH AND MY SUBSTANCE, MY INNER BEAUTY AND MY UNIQUENESS, WHILE SENSING MY INNERCONNECTEDNESS TO THE WORLD AROUND ME. The ME is discovered, felt, sensed, intuited and appreciated. Every one of us hopefully can reach a point where the ME is sipped like an expensive wine, is adored and loved.

In love, aside from sipping the wine of timelessness, nothing else exists. 

There is no reason for living except for giving one’s life. 

I said, ‘First I know you, then I die.’ He said, ‘For the one who knows Me, there is no dying.

These are Rumi’s words.

And my wise self is saying hello to me, and the many ways I exist as me.

I am a woman with unique features, personality and history. This is my basic ME.

I have invested a lot of time into knowing myself through introspection, reading, reflection, meditation, energetic healing. This is an expression of my thirst to know the ME.

I have dug very deep into my spirit, heart and mind to understand what drives me, what motivates me, what my passions are, why I have loved and suffered, what my purpose is, how I create meaning, what makes me incredible joyful and outrageously happy. This is ME knowing and understanding the ME.

I am extremely curious and I enjoy Life in all its aspects, richness and mysteries. This is so ME.

I try to act from my deepest Truth and Integrity towards ME and other human beings. This is my compassionate ME.

I am passionate about teaching people how to live kinder and wiser lives, how to open their hearts, how to read the whisper of their souls. This is the purpose of my ME.

I separate my emotions from other people’s emotions – my parents, my loved ones, my friends. I try to differentiate my expectations from the expectations of the group. This makes me more ME.

I love to feel the intensity of my emotions through Music. I love to dance, laugh and celebrate. This is “loving my life” ME.

I have an essence or a soul, and the more I reflect the energy of my soul, the more I am full of my ME – the energy which gives me color, uniqueness, vibration and health.

At the end, we share each other’s unfolding ME through the energy we project, give and display. The lighter we are, the higher we can fly. The brighter we are, the more ME we show.

There are many shades of ME.

And that is one truth of the universal ME!

A Healthy Heart – Part Two

A Healthy Heart – Part Two

I perceive a healthy heart like the shining sun. It nourishes us beautifully, shines brightly, and feels peaceful.

I am trying to sense what Jesus’ heart was like – a bright sun emanating wisdom, and what we call a Christ’s consciousness – the embodied connection between the heart, the brain, and the sacred. Jesus must have been wearing his healing heart on his sleeves. He had so much to teach and give that protecting himself and hiding his gifts was not on his agenda when called to serve and change the world.

A healthy heart glows from a distance. I think that we can all make this happen. A healthy heart radiates a healthy energy that makes everybody feel good. We like people for the heart energy they emanate and project towards us.

The lasting connections we have in our lives are based on this invisible heart to heart connection that we honor and cherish.There is trust in this thread, and integrity, honor and respect. We communicate through this heart energy that we like the other people, that we treasure their spirit, and their beautiful selves.

In a way we all wear our hearts on our sleeves, like Jesus, because our heart energy doesn’t lie. Research shows that the heart’s energy field is much stronger than that of the brain. “The heart is hundred times more electromagnetically powerful than the brain” (In awe of the heart, Pearsall, 2007). The heart is constantly emitting energy all around us, and the energy of the heart is easier to measure in comparison to the brains. “The heart’s energy can be measured form several feet away from the body” (Pearsall, 2007).

New advances in neurocardiology reveal that the heart has its own neuro-circuitry and acts as a processing center for information, stimuli and cognitive functions. The heart’s nervous system contains around 40,000 neurons called sensory neurites that are in two-way communication with the brain, which also regulate cardiac function.

“Research shows that the heart, in fact, literally thinks, feels, and remembers; is formed and nurtured; by and connects with others hearts” (In awe of the heart, Pearsall, 2007).

We all intuitively know that life revolves around the heart, and that the meaning we create in life is somehow all about our heart-felt experiences. Steve Jobs once said at a Stanford graduation ceremony that “Your heart and intuition already know what you would like to become. Everything else is secondary.”

The heart is an amazing organ. The French philosopher Blaise Pascal used to say that the heart has its reasons which reason knows nothing about. We are in love with logic and analysis, but life is, in so many ways, an illogical place. Human beings have been chasing their own tail in prioritizating logic over all else. While elusiveness and beauty and mystery is forsaken.

The most exquisite things in life are veiled in mystery. We can’t pin them down that is why we are drawn to them. That is why we are so intrigued by the heart, and afraid at the same time.

The link between the heart and intuition has been demonstrated by research such as at the HeartMath Institute. But the role intuition plays in our lives is an emerging science that hasn’t been studied extensively yet. Using intuition is a healing process because we accept and welcome in our lives the mystery that surrounds our human existence. We are as mystical as we are logical, and both sides enrich our lives and makes us more whole.

If the heart’s energetic field is so powerful, is it possible that the more intuitive and connected we become to the larger interconnected world, the more we open our hearts to new sensory input and energies? Anybody who has spent time developing intuitive skills reports an increased emotional, spiritual and physical well-being. The infusion of new wisdom into our lives, and healthier energies allow our hearts to safely let go and transform. Our hearts slowly heal from our misguided perceptions and illusions.

I think that intuition somehow helps us make better and healthier decisions for ourselves, our hearts and our lives. By balancing the power of the logical brain and our social conditioning, perceptual shifts start happening. And in bringing more awareness to our hearts, we create more fulfilled and meaningful lives.

The more we integrate intuitive ways of being and thinking, the more awe and wonder we experience. Our sensory system becomes more sensitive to the beauty, insights and impressions we receive. We start experiencing life in beautiful new ways, and we experience positive and empowering emotions.

 

“Pearsall (2007) says: “I am learning that awe happens when something occurs that causes our heart to somehow manage to free itself from the dominance of our brain and to cause us to feel profoundly connected with the world in new, challenging, and sometimes frightening ways.”

Reflections on the Heart – Part One

“ Discover the powerful light of your spirit and the joy of your heart.”

VERA JORDAN BELLAMY

I’ve noticed in the last few months, while working on myself, with clients, and in workshops – that I’ve been drawn to do healings of the heart. I’ve become increasingly aware that we need to heal and nurture our tender and beautiful hearts.

All of us keep so much in our hearts – pain, disappointment, loss, memories – wishing that our past disappears in the depth of our heart. Contrary to popular belief, I don’t think that time really heals our pain, although it does make the memory of it more distant from our present and consciousness.

For this reason upgrading the energy of the heart is crucial for our happiness as human beings and our new beginnings. Opening up to our spiritual wisdom starts with cleansing and opening the heart.

What the spiritual traditions call spiritual qualities – compassion, empathy, love, inner-peace, patience – author and cardiologist Paul Pearsall calls heart-felt qualities. “The brain is made for success, the attainment of desired ends. But the heart is designed for excellence – possessing good qualities” (A heart of Excellence, P. Pearsall).

Have you noticed how closed up so many of our hearts are, how fearful we are to show our love, compassion and empathy towards our friends and strangers?

Pearsall suggests that to have a heartfelt life, we need to become extremely attuned to our heart’s messages of wisdom, which are transmitted through its subtle energy field. And we need to become “as cardio-sensitive” as the heart recipients.

How do we become sensitive to our hearts, when most of the time we tend to protect instead of open? Where does this “cardio-wisdom” come from? Is it innate or do we increase it and reveal it through deepening our connection to the energies of the universe?

From my own experience with intuition development, I believe that intuition allows us to tune into and listen more to our hearts. The new connections we create through intuition increases the sensitivity of our hearts. And the more we use and practice our intuition, the more we become aware of this subtle realm of wisdom gathering and integration.

As we increase our awareness about ourselves, we naturally experience a more connected life to the world around us and to other people. Science is revealing to us that intuitive information is processed through the heart, seconds before it reaches the brain, thus presenting us with a new picture of the complexity of our human nature (Electrophysiological Evidence of Intuition: Part 1, Rollin McCraty and al. 2004).

If the science of intuition holds the clue to understanding our connections and role in the world as suggested by R. McCraty, it might also make us understand how this expanded perception and wisdom opens our hearts in new ways, and heals our heart and bodies. As human beings, we have a lot to learn about how to be in the world and how to be more connected, more joyful, and more present. Spiritual and personal development is about acquiring spiritual knowledge and integrating more spiritual qualities in our lives.

By committing to discovering who we are, we are allowing for a new spiritual guiding self to emerge, and replace the pain we have been keeping in our beautiful hearts with light and new possibilities.

Healing starts with Curiosity

I know that healing starts with curiosity. I know it from my own personal experience. If I wasn’t curious about who I was, what my purpose was, why I attracted the experiences I did, why I suffered, why, why, why… I would have never experienced the joy and clarity I have at the present moment.

Curiosity is the impetus to everything we do in life. There are no inventions, and no breakthroughs in the world without first becoming interested in something.  I met a woman recently on a walk, and I was astonished that she felt comfortable with her suffering. She had broken up with a boyfriend quite a while ago, but still talked about him, and still hoped that they could reconcile – as if she expected him to come back into her life. All her energy was directed on this one past experience, and she forgot about herself, and how to make herself happy again.

For me, this is an example of a person who isn’t interested in learning about herself, and in expanding her perception to repair the pain she is feeling.  We may say that her spirit is stuck, that she is in box, that she needs to stay a little longer in that state before she learns her wisdom lesson.

Whatever the real reason, at a deep level she is lacking the curiosity for herself that she needs to deal with her loss. She is not present to herself, is not grounded, and is living in the past.

Curiosity is an amazing skill. Nothing happens without having an interest in discovering something new and surprising, something that our logical mind can’t even conceive. I am so surprised that people spend so much time learning about other people, but forget to learn about the most important person in the world — themselves.  Yet, what happens to us and how we deal with every situation depends on the tools we learn to answer the questions our curiosity brings forth, and the compassion we feel for ourselves, and the wisdom we are able to receive during the healing process.

That is why Intuition is such an important ability to discover and use. The more curious we become about ourselves, the deeper we will know ourselves. And as we increase our self-knowledge, we increase our confidence in ourselves. The more confidence we have, the more we trust our intuitive insights.  The more there is of us here in present time, the more we integrate our intuitive skills with our rational mind and live happier, clearer and more pleasurable lives.

So be curious today.

“Your outer world will start reflecting the beauty and harmony of your inner healed self.”

VERA JORDAN BELLAMY

The Entangled Webs We Weave

Entangled
Webs
We Weave

“At very deep levels the separations that we see between ordinary, isolated objects are, in a sense, illusions created by our limited perceptions” (Entangled minds, Dean Radin, 2007).

The picture above is of a tree I saw on a walk in Marin county, California. For some reason, it made me think for second of our entangled subatomic world, which is what physicists now believe to be the reality that we live in.

Entanglement is a law of modern physics. It means that when subatomic particles meet, their course of action even after they separate, stay correlated. By extension, scientist have been suggesting that we create bonds with one another through healing intentions and empathy, that we create connections even with animals we encounter and trees we touch.

These connections probably continue to have effects and influence us beyond physical separation. According to Mickael Brooks (2004), “Physicists now believe that entanglement between particles exists everywhere, all the time, and have recently found shocking evidence that it affects the wider, ‘macroscopic’ world that we inhabit.”

Achterberg’s research (2005) on distant healing reveals that human healing intentions affect brain function in ways not “entirely understood.” So every time I look at this tree, I am moved and I am reminded that we live in a beautiful and interconnected universe, where we share ourselves at an invisible level. I feel that this tree’s living matrix has left imprints within myself and my energy because I feel connected to it. And I feel grateful that I do not evolve alone in this world

In deep meditative states, I can experience the interconnectedness of everything. It just shows itself to me. In stillness, I  sense a web of wave-like energy, in incredibly quiet environment. This quantum energy seems like a grid, and it has a very well-organized interference pattern, a wave-like quality. This is also how scientists describe the nature of the universe.

I find deep peacefulness in this expericence, an awe and wonder of living in this energy based reality. It is a moment of infinite grace, a moment of profound truth. I am inside of its vibration, its palpitation, I feel so much gratitude. I observe the energy connection in all aspects of my physical reality, In a similar way, trees and plants and nature are part of the same grid and translate their own language on earth.

These experiences tell me that there is no void on earth, and what we see with our five senses is just a small piece of the reality we live in. The rest is still a mystery, the realm of what sages call the mystical world. Einstein once said that “the most beautiful thing we can experience is the mysterious.” I am convinced that as human beings we are capable of connecting with the nature of our reality, and derive meaning from it for us and the world around us. Intuitive qualities, while “subjective and slippery” (Radin, 2007), allow us to access knowledge and insights that have real value and truth, and maybe provide valuable information for us ahead of time.

I remember the first time I started giving intuitive insights to people. My trainers believed that Intuition is a skill that needs to be practiced immediately, so they put me in a room with a woman who came to inquire about her emotional state. Somehow, I knew that she came because she had an issue with a boyfriend and the reading took a relational direction. But the moral of the story is that all that day I kept wondering how I’d known about her boyfriend.

Where did that information come from? After all, I was a novice intuitive reader, barely a few months into the training, and I was seeing and sensing information that was true for this woman and had value for her emotional state. I didn’t know anything about her.

From what I now understand scientifically, I now believe I had used my human intuitive skill to log into the holographic nature of the universe, what scientists call the non-local realm, where information is stored and where space and time are irrelevant. Because I might have became entangled with this woman, our minds or our brains became entangled as well, and somehow she allowed me to enter into her energetic world and read her story.

Not only did she allow me, but I also had the tools to log into that realm and get there, and grab the information I needed. The curious thing is that at this point I barely had the skills to access intuitive information. It is quite possible that somebody else with the same Intuitive skill-set may have not accessed this information or may have accessed a different kind of information. Then, it would mean that entanglement and correlation between people might be very unique, and that the exchange of communication occurring is also unique.

Although nobody is capable yet to give us the full picture of how entanglement between people happens and exists, there is no doubt in my mind through my observation of energy fields that we do become entangled, and that correlation happens on some deep and unconscious level.

What is Intuition?

What is Intuition?

Intuition is a skill or capacity that all humans possess, which gives us the possibility to know something beyond our five senses. Intuition reaches to our unconscious mind, and from there into the higher reality of the universe or the cosmos.

Einstein called it a forgotten gift. For the Greeks and the Romans, it was the the way the cosmos sent its messages and told its truth. In Chinese philosophy, intuition is linked with qualities of the feminine and the earth. The calmer we are, the more intuitive we become.

Intuitive insight rises from a awareness deep within us. Its immediate revelation can hit us like a hammer. It carries its own language, and speaks to us through images, impressions, voices, feelings, or a deep knowing. If its messages stay with us, that is because they matter to our lives.

In a fast changing world, developing intuitive skills allow us to better navigate the layers of complex realities, and even chaos, regularly encountered. Intuition helps us experience life at a deeper and richer level, bringing more understanding to our experiences, and to gauge our own truth more accurately.

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